A whole lot of flooding going on ...

Storms hit today with a vengeance, and our poor basement with all of Lis's belongings flooded.  We managed to salvage most everything, at the expense of Terry getting enough sleep.  He will have to leave shortly for work with about 4 hours total sleep for the day... have tried talking him into staying home tonight, but he just won't hear of it. 
Missed bootcamp this morning because of some little virus ... chills, abdominal discomfort, and a headache that would rival one of the worst migraines I've ever had.  Happy to say I'm feeling much better tonight, and am looking forward to sleeping like a baby ...barring any more storms!
So as today concludes, I'm grateful that our corner of the world was spared the tornadoes, and heavy flooding that other areas sufffered, grateful that a little water in the basement didn't upset all of our apple carts and we all worked together to dry off what we could, and toss out what we couldn't.  We're warm, relatively dry, and intact... goodnight.

Monday, Monday, blah, blah....

So today started off with a little better focus, a lot better attitude and an amazing amount of energy. Perhaps realizing that menopause has arrived with a vengeance has set my ODD (oppositional defiance disorder) into overdrive... I absolutely refuse to give into middle age. Period. End of discussion.  So for now, I will capitalize on this new found energy and focus, push thru the pain and hot flashes, the anger and the sadness, hopefully to emerge on the other side as well put together as I can possibly hope to be ... ride the waves, weather the storm, bend- don't break.  I can do this.

Sunday

So, last January I started bootcamp, did really well til things started falling apart around me.  Still didn't do horrible overall, but I used the stress of the distractions of my families trials to lure me away from the straight and narrow path I had religiously followed the past 10 months.  Amazingly enough, the forbidden foods didn't really taste that good, but I ate them anyway, cursing myself afterwards, berating myself for being so weak.  I used the excuse that I would start back with a vengeance in January...
So now, it's January...almost February.  I have done much better, but not with the enthusiasm of last year.  What's different, what's changed, where has my resolve and my willpower gone?

January 20, 2013
I've wanted to "Blog" for some time now and haven't felt that I had the time or energy to devote to it's creation, then I realized that I probably spent enough time wondering if I actually had the time to have actually started one, so here I go.
Fifteen years ago, I began a journey with my self perception.  I was completely consumed by my physical life ... being a daughter, wife, mother, friend, employee... so much so that I had completely lost me.  Fast forward to today, and I'm still consumed but not so much so that I've lost me in the swirl...or atleast not all of me. 
A year ago I started participating in a bootcamp exercise and weight loss program.  I fell in love with it.  I've done okay, could do better, but overall I'm very pleased with where I'm at.  I'm physically stronger and mentally stronger...that's good, right?  So my arthritic knee and hip have been screaming at me with all this new "movement" in my life and I had eventually tried pills to help dull the discomfort so I could sleep.  A month ago, I started taking local honey and cinnamon twice a day for this discomfort after reading several other accounts of this working, and I'm pleased to say that I've not needed the pills in over a month.  I'm encouraged, but wonder if anyone else has tried this with any success?